Foodie Friday: My Current Diet Plan
I am anxious to do this post not because I want to do it, but because I don’t want to do it. Anxious as in, I am scared this may be my downfall and all hope will be lost, kind of way. Other than that, life is great!
So…..I am quitting dieting. Well, I’m quitting on a trial run. I am going to throw out my diet books, cookbooks, low-calorie recipes (that taste like crap) and diet plans that I somewhat follow on a rotation basis. I’m even looking at some of the food/recipe advice on some of my favorite health guru shows and thinking, “That looks like it would taste awful! But, in order to have a body like them, I should eat it.” Well, if I wanted a body like them, I would have it already. I am not that disciplined in the exercise department the way they are either – no surprise.
I want to look like a normal person who isn’t bulging with muscles and ripped abs. I want to look soft and womanly with a few curves, but also feel comfortable in a bathing suit. These are my small hopes. Therefore, rigorous exercise is out (I’m not sure I think this is good on the cells overall anyways – it causes massive oxidation, read: aging) and eating/drinking/exercise in moderation is in. WHAT???
A billion years ago (more like 20) I was going to a psychologist for fear/anxiety issues. There was a point in the discussion where I mentioned I had been dieting for many years and was tired of it. Imagine, I was tired then! She, the psych, told me to stop dieting and eat what I wanted. I was floored! Why, that’s like walking the dog off leash! That’s like driving blindfolded! Holy Crap! What will become of me? It was also a very freeing moment for me. No restrictions, no rigid rules, no obsessing over food and meals. No more telling people, “No, I can’t go out because I’m on a diet you fool!” This denial had made me into a machine I’m afraid. At first I went crazy and did eat what I wanted ignoring calories and portions. Ok, that’s not horrible, but not the point I think she was trying to make.
A few years before this occurrence, I traveled to Europe on a graduation present. For a major portion of the trip I was in France – Paris and Nice – and did what you hear all the time about people to who travel to France and eat all that rich food – I lost weight; 5 pounds actually, in the course of only a couple of weeks. I have a picture somewhere to prove it… Anyways, I was amazed because I was eating richly; in fact, one evening, the husband of the house I was staying in offered to make me homemade french-fries (we were joking about how they aren’t french and he was a chef) and suddenly, he lept upstairs from the table we were eating at and made me an entire basket. Of course, I was obligated to eat and enjoy them! Not gonna lie, we walked our feet off everyday too because my Spanish friend thought at the time that she was fat and refused to take the Metro anywhere but from the house to our daily starting point. Then, we proceeded to walk all over Paris from one side to the other for about 5-6 days. When I was up in the Eiffel Tower, she showed me where we had been all week and I was flabbergasted at the distance we had travelled. Blisters galore! I did not bring exercise shoes to Europe. Why did I tell this little story? To prove my point about ignoring diets and eating what you want. Life will not blow up, nor will your butt.
Also, a few years ago, I went off my “diets” and wanted to clear out my freezer that was containing a lot of food that I desperately needed to eat up because it was getting old (I have a tendency to stockpile in the tradition of my Grandma). So I cooked up all sorts of yummy dishes containing the things I already had, in a sense, shopping in my own freezer/refrig for a few weeks. Guess what? I lost weight again. Yeah, I was exercising too, but nothing more or less than I do now. 3 pounds – torched.
What is my point? I want to re-calibrate my system. I think my metabolism has dropped and I think my “diets” have made me food crazy. (binging issues anyone?) After 26 years, I need a break. I understand food portioning, calories-in-versus-calories-out, balancing foods and food groups, eating healthy, etc, etc, etc, etc.!!! This time, as opposed to the first time 20 years ago, I won’t go insane with my food choices due to this learned knowledge. This time, I will only live by the “rules” of 1.eat when hungry and 2. stop eating when full. Eating a balance of foods like fruits and vegetables at all meals is a part of my life now that I won’t ever give up. It makes me feel better when I eat this way. I don’t want to be fat, but I don’t want to live in a food prison anymore either. I want to be normal and the way I have been looking at food isn’t normal. Let me try this out for 6 weeks and I’ll get back to you on it. It’s sure to be an adventure.